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My dad called today, we don't speak each other often but we're good *thumbs up* He told me that he can't move 1 leg. If he tries to move his leg it hurts a lot.
So he went to the docter and they say that it could be 3 things: Lyme disease, brain haemorrhage (stroke) or.. Multiple sclerosis (MS)
Freaking. MS. Like. wtf. The docters already (kinda) ruled out Lyme. But here I am. Just 20 years old and terrified to death because of the thoughts of losing my dad. Or at least watch him suffer because THERE IS NOTHING ELSE I CAN FREAKING DO. You know.. your parents are invincible, they should like grow old peacefully and play with the grandchildren or whatever.. Not this god damn it.. Not after we received the news that his cancer is not aggressive and that it's all good. He doesn't deserves this.. It also goes bad financially. My dad was too proud to tell my mom (they're divorced) that he couldn't pay for his groceries because the house THEY bought is too expensive for his salary alone. If my mom and dad wouldn't go beserk, I would have quit my study and help out my dad. But they won't allow it. It's just so frustrating.
The test results will be known on 31 of August, ironically on my dads birthday. We are trying to stay positive and we hope it's lyme. My dad works in a forest and it makes more sense. Easy curable also so no biggie.
Fingers crossed
So he went to the docter and they say that it could be 3 things: Lyme disease, brain haemorrhage (stroke) or.. Multiple sclerosis (MS)
Freaking. MS. Like. wtf. The docters already (kinda) ruled out Lyme. But here I am. Just 20 years old and terrified to death because of the thoughts of losing my dad. Or at least watch him suffer because THERE IS NOTHING ELSE I CAN FREAKING DO. You know.. your parents are invincible, they should like grow old peacefully and play with the grandchildren or whatever.. Not this god damn it.. Not after we received the news that his cancer is not aggressive and that it's all good. He doesn't deserves this.. It also goes bad financially. My dad was too proud to tell my mom (they're divorced) that he couldn't pay for his groceries because the house THEY bought is too expensive for his salary alone. If my mom and dad wouldn't go beserk, I would have quit my study and help out my dad. But they won't allow it. It's just so frustrating.
The test results will be known on 31 of August, ironically on my dads birthday. We are trying to stay positive and we hope it's lyme. My dad works in a forest and it makes more sense. Easy curable also so no biggie.
Fingers crossed
AH-HA!
AFTER MORE THAN ONE YEAR, I finally re-visit Deviantart again!
I want to give a small update of what has happened in my huge hiatus period.. I lived in Sweden for 9 months instead of half a year, I slayed my minor at the faculty of Social Sciences and finished my thesis about refugee youth with a passing grade. I only have to pass one re-exam and then I can finally call myself a Social Worker! This also means I'm a jobless piece of shit now
I made so many friends when I was abroad and it was by far the best experience of my life! I also fell in love with someone from Tunisia and even visited his family in Tunis. Sadly things didn't work ou
ANOTHER ONE
I've been looking at me gallery and all I could think was how much I hate my art. How much the others have improved and how I draw almost the same as 3 years ago. It's a bit silly to expect anything different because I haven't been drawing at all. Drawing was my life, my way of dealing with things. Back in 2013, when I was 17, I tried to apply for an art school. I was so disappointed and devastated when the art school treated me like trash. 'That's how to world works.' was their response. Ever since that day I stopped drawing as active as I used to do. I tried to continue drawing but the voice in my head kept saying it's no use. What's the po
I'm totally not procrastinating..
Stolen from the lovely Winterplanet (https://www.deviantart.com/winterplanet) :eyes: I'm definitely not working on an important report late at night. Let's be clear
(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ~『✧~*ABOUT YOU*~✧』
1. are you more feminine or masculine?
Lately I'm more feminine!
2. are you tall or short?
Shuurtt
3. what’s your favorite color?
Turquoise :heart:
4. what do you love about yourself?
I guess my silliness..
5. what’s your greatest flaw?
Setting priorities and my bad-ass procrastination skills
6. do you see yourself differently than other people describe you?
Nah, I'm a very 'what you see is what you
Update + OC tag
Hey there~!
I'm once again sorry for my absent.. I've quit my internship and traveled to Sweden, which was amazing :heart: I have a new internship since February and it's AWESOME. Very kind people and I'm learning so much!! It's a Social Team who works for a particular district in Utrecht ôuô. The only downside is the huge amount of time it consumes of me. I don't even have enough time for my family and friends, let alone for art ^^; I really admire the people who are able to manage all their work, social life and hobbies.. =w= Luckily I have time to go to Klangkarussell live for some nice house music on 26 March~~
OH I ALMOST FO
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